As usual.... I have been pretty lax in my blogging lately, and that is because I have been completely exhausted from baseball games every stinkin' night of the week and practices twice on Saturday. SO, have made a statement to my husband that come Monday I will be eating nothing that I am not supposed to. Have been eating at the ball field alot... snacks and stuff. Will either have to eat at home/work before the games, take a small (healthy) snack with me, and/or eat when I get home at 9:00 pm. Gonna suck, and take some more energy, but hopefully eating better and getting (slowly) back to the gym... all will be well.
So, hope to see you more next week, and every week after!
Friday, June 15, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Another Day Closer...
I had the day off from work yesterday to get some things accomplished. Met with a friend in the morning for a hopefully lucrative new venture, then hung out with my hubby, and then the dentist. Always love getting good news (:P), ie. root canal, deep cleaning, and a crown needed. Yippee for me!
We got up early this morning (5:00 a.m.) and went to the gym. That gives us time to get there and back, and to work out for about 45 minutes to an hour. Might have to start getting up earlier once I get back into this, there were times when I needed an hour and a half to get all my stuff done. So we shall see how the morning routine sticks it out. I did walk a bit faster today. Tuesday was at 2.0 mph and a 2.0 incline, today was at 2.5 mph and a 1.5 incline starting out, then went up to 2.7 mph. I will get back to where I was, just have to take it one step at a time... I definitely still need to work on my food choices. The shakes are working well for me, I am not hungry on them, they fill me up, and taste great, of course. It's the time in between the end of work at dinner time that is an obstacle for me. Especially when I am at the ball field almost every night. I get a little hungry, and of course don't have any healthy snacks with me, so I get some nachos, or a pretzel, or a candy bar... and then I eat dinner when we get home.
Having some issues with my scale. Not sure it is because of the uneven boards in my bathroom or because it is ready for a new battery, but this morning I weighed first at 286.4 and was so disgusted. Then my husband asked what was wrong, so I told him that I had gained weight. He then told me he weighed the other day 3 times in a 5 minute period, and each time was different. So I wiped off the bottom of the scale, put it on a flatter spot on the floor and re-weighed, and weighed in at 285.2 pounds. Which is 0.4 pounds down from Tuesday. My hands were really swollen again this morning (was hardly able to move my rings), so really need to start watching my salt I guess.
Time is short today, so that will be all. Baseball again tonight. Hopefully once that is all done, I will be able to get myself a bit more organized so this can go a bit smoother and quicker. Just never seems to get done with all the other stuff going on...
We got up early this morning (5:00 a.m.) and went to the gym. That gives us time to get there and back, and to work out for about 45 minutes to an hour. Might have to start getting up earlier once I get back into this, there were times when I needed an hour and a half to get all my stuff done. So we shall see how the morning routine sticks it out. I did walk a bit faster today. Tuesday was at 2.0 mph and a 2.0 incline, today was at 2.5 mph and a 1.5 incline starting out, then went up to 2.7 mph. I will get back to where I was, just have to take it one step at a time... I definitely still need to work on my food choices. The shakes are working well for me, I am not hungry on them, they fill me up, and taste great, of course. It's the time in between the end of work at dinner time that is an obstacle for me. Especially when I am at the ball field almost every night. I get a little hungry, and of course don't have any healthy snacks with me, so I get some nachos, or a pretzel, or a candy bar... and then I eat dinner when we get home.
Having some issues with my scale. Not sure it is because of the uneven boards in my bathroom or because it is ready for a new battery, but this morning I weighed first at 286.4 and was so disgusted. Then my husband asked what was wrong, so I told him that I had gained weight. He then told me he weighed the other day 3 times in a 5 minute period, and each time was different. So I wiped off the bottom of the scale, put it on a flatter spot on the floor and re-weighed, and weighed in at 285.2 pounds. Which is 0.4 pounds down from Tuesday. My hands were really swollen again this morning (was hardly able to move my rings), so really need to start watching my salt I guess.
Time is short today, so that will be all. Baseball again tonight. Hopefully once that is all done, I will be able to get myself a bit more organized so this can go a bit smoother and quicker. Just never seems to get done with all the other stuff going on...
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
A New Start
So, I feel like I am starting the whole journey over again as of today. My husband and I got up early and went to the gym. I walked (slowly) for 45 minutes straight. I was a little frustrated at walking so slow, but felt if I went faster I wouldn't have been able to make it as long. Plus, for the last 3 days my calf muscles have been crying out because of all the stairs/walking I did on Saturday. They are still sore today! I was feeling I was going as fast as I could, but was pissed at myself for not going faster because I started out at faster than that at the beginning of the year!
I have gained back alot of the weight I had lost. I am only down a total of 11 pounds since my start at the first of the year. But I am starting over. I am determined to do what works for me. Weighing every day works for me. The ViSalus shakes work for me. Working out works for me. Counting the days does not work for me. So, as of today, I will not be posting how many days I have been going (and let's face, I lost count a month or so ago!). I will however, be posting my weight. Today's weight was 285.6 pounds. I have dealt with the fact that I may not reach my initial goal of losing 125 pounds by the end of the year. But there are lots of people out there that lose 100 pounds in 6 months, and do it healthy. So, I have no excuses not to reach my goal. I am still gung ho on reaching that, but I am resigned to the fact that it just may not happen. So whatever weight I reach, I will reach it healthy. I will eventually reach the 125 pounds lost mark, but it may not be this year. Small goals will be set, and I will reach them as I can. I will be smart about what I eat, how I fuel my body, and the rest will come!
Someone asked me the other day what I was waiting for. That I can make the choices or make the excuses. And I know I have had so many lately. I own up to the fact that I "cannot" find the way to make it to the gym. Also, I think a part of me is kinda scared. I have never been fit, or skinny or whatever you want to call it. My husband always asks me when I lose all this weight, if I will still be with him or go find some hot young stud?! I think I have that same fear... when I lose all this weight (and he has never seen me fit...) is he still gonna want me? I know that is kinda a really irrational fear, cuz who wouldn't want a hot wife, right?
I have gained back alot of the weight I had lost. I am only down a total of 11 pounds since my start at the first of the year. But I am starting over. I am determined to do what works for me. Weighing every day works for me. The ViSalus shakes work for me. Working out works for me. Counting the days does not work for me. So, as of today, I will not be posting how many days I have been going (and let's face, I lost count a month or so ago!). I will however, be posting my weight. Today's weight was 285.6 pounds. I have dealt with the fact that I may not reach my initial goal of losing 125 pounds by the end of the year. But there are lots of people out there that lose 100 pounds in 6 months, and do it healthy. So, I have no excuses not to reach my goal. I am still gung ho on reaching that, but I am resigned to the fact that it just may not happen. So whatever weight I reach, I will reach it healthy. I will eventually reach the 125 pounds lost mark, but it may not be this year. Small goals will be set, and I will reach them as I can. I will be smart about what I eat, how I fuel my body, and the rest will come!
Someone asked me the other day what I was waiting for. That I can make the choices or make the excuses. And I know I have had so many lately. I own up to the fact that I "cannot" find the way to make it to the gym. Also, I think a part of me is kinda scared. I have never been fit, or skinny or whatever you want to call it. My husband always asks me when I lose all this weight, if I will still be with him or go find some hot young stud?! I think I have that same fear... when I lose all this weight (and he has never seen me fit...) is he still gonna want me? I know that is kinda a really irrational fear, cuz who wouldn't want a hot wife, right?
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Day 27 of 90
So tomorrow marks 4 weeks into my challenge. Again, not looking forward to weighing in. Still haven't been getting to the gym, still haven't been doing the videos at home. Have been trying to walk at the ball park, but doesn't always happen.
I feel like this blog has just became a whining board for me. I don't ever seem to be getting anywhere, and I know that is my own fault. I am sorry for those of you that read this!
I only have 2 more weeks or so of ball games, hopefully the gym portion of my journey will open back up a bit! I had some more tools given to me by Kassi with the ViSalus company. She hooked me up with some protein packed chocolate chip cookies, which are divine, as well as some energy "stuff" and some appetite control. Today is the first day using these tools. The one thing I can say so far... I took one of the energy packets at lunch as I was yawning during my lunch hour. I don't remember yawning since. I wasn't really feeling tired, just yawning. But again, no yawning.
Things have been a little crazy around my house lately, I have had alot of things going on, alot of things NOT going on, and it has been a little stressful and hectic. I am hoping things will get back on track soon. Wish it was something I had control over, then I would just fix it. But alas, tis not... so I will wait it out, and hope for some good news soon.
Thanks to everyone for hanging with me on this journey. It hasn't really been going as planned- weight loss, working out, cooking, or this blog, but I will get it lined out soon. It's a trial and error, seems like more error than trial on my part, but still working for it!
I feel like this blog has just became a whining board for me. I don't ever seem to be getting anywhere, and I know that is my own fault. I am sorry for those of you that read this!
I only have 2 more weeks or so of ball games, hopefully the gym portion of my journey will open back up a bit! I had some more tools given to me by Kassi with the ViSalus company. She hooked me up with some protein packed chocolate chip cookies, which are divine, as well as some energy "stuff" and some appetite control. Today is the first day using these tools. The one thing I can say so far... I took one of the energy packets at lunch as I was yawning during my lunch hour. I don't remember yawning since. I wasn't really feeling tired, just yawning. But again, no yawning.
Things have been a little crazy around my house lately, I have had alot of things going on, alot of things NOT going on, and it has been a little stressful and hectic. I am hoping things will get back on track soon. Wish it was something I had control over, then I would just fix it. But alas, tis not... so I will wait it out, and hope for some good news soon.
Thanks to everyone for hanging with me on this journey. It hasn't really been going as planned- weight loss, working out, cooking, or this blog, but I will get it lined out soon. It's a trial and error, seems like more error than trial on my part, but still working for it!
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Day 20 of 90
Tomorrow will be 3 weeks into my challenge. I am not looking forward to weighing myself tomorrow. I will measure tomorrow as well. I am hoping for some change in inches, as the scale is betraying me! LOL I am a little scared that the inches will not have changed either, but that is completely my fault too, so no one to blame but me! I think my mindset has taken a vacation. At the beginning of the year, I was going to the gym everyday. I enjoyed going to the gym everyday. It's not that I have changed my mindset, I still want to see this through. I just think that it's taken some time off. And I don't really have time for that. I have a certain goal, and unfortunately, I am not sure I will reach my initial goal by the end of the year. I just have to get my mind, body, and heart back on track and I can reach my goal. Maybe not by the end of the year, but I will reach it nonetheless.
I am the creator of my own destiny. I am the one that makes the decisions on how I live my life. And I want to live my life to the fullest. With that being said, decisions on my part need to be made. Motivation and determination need to be the new mindset. I know how hard it is growing up overweight. I don't want my kids to have to endure that pain and rejection that many of us have went through. On a positive note, being overweight through school has "toughened" me up a bit. Things don't get to me like they used to. When something happens that I don't like, I deal with it and move on. I don't dwell on things too long. I have learned that being upset about what people say about you, or dwelling on an argument you have had, just takes time away from you being happy or being productive. I have been ridiculed my entire life, mostly over my weight. But let me tell you one thing... I promise I know what it is like. I have went through it all. In school, not only was I overweight, but I wore glasses, and had braces. So trust me... I have been where you have been, I have went through what you have went through.
When you look in the mirror, see what you want to see. See what's in the inside, and it will project to the outside. As long as you are happy with who you are, inside and out, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
I am overdue on my readiness for change. I have been ready for change for years. I just haven't really worked for the change. I will get my motivation back, whether it likes it or not! I just have to be tough with it. I have to be tough with myself. I will have to deprive myself of the things that I think I want. That cookie, that cake, those chips are not worth it. Today, the change comes back!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Day 19 of 90
So really feeling down in the dumps. I cannot seem to stop eating. The scale is not moving down, in fact it is creeping back up. Still not back to my starting weight of this 90 day challenge, but close. My stress has taken a huge toll on my willpower. I am craving all kinds of junk, cookies, candy, cakes, chips... it's not good!
And I am SOOOO tired! I know part of it is because I forget to take my vitamins. Something about the days I take them, I am not quite as tired, but most of it is because I am being sedentary. I was almost never TIRED when I was working out. I may have been exhausted, or worn out, but never tired. So, here's the plan...
With all the ball games and other things going on right now, it is just not feasible for me to go to the gym after work like I had been. I love going to the classes I was going to, but they start right after work on days that I have ball games on some nights. Every week the game schedule is different, so it is hard to make a schedule of my own. So, the day will just have to start early. I can do early. I get up at 5:30 am on Saturday mornings so my boys can be at ball practice by 7:00. I guess I can do that any other day.
People have asked me if I plan to stay on the shakes the rest of my life. The answer is I don't know. There are people that have lost weight, then maintained with one shake a day. If you love the shakes that much, why not have it for breakfast? Then maintain a healthy eating habit the rest of the day. When not stressed (for me) the shakes gave me energy, they made me feel better. So, I don't know what the answer is right now, but I don't have to figure that out yet.
And I am SOOOO tired! I know part of it is because I forget to take my vitamins. Something about the days I take them, I am not quite as tired, but most of it is because I am being sedentary. I was almost never TIRED when I was working out. I may have been exhausted, or worn out, but never tired. So, here's the plan...
With all the ball games and other things going on right now, it is just not feasible for me to go to the gym after work like I had been. I love going to the classes I was going to, but they start right after work on days that I have ball games on some nights. Every week the game schedule is different, so it is hard to make a schedule of my own. So, the day will just have to start early. I can do early. I get up at 5:30 am on Saturday mornings so my boys can be at ball practice by 7:00. I guess I can do that any other day.
People have asked me if I plan to stay on the shakes the rest of my life. The answer is I don't know. There are people that have lost weight, then maintained with one shake a day. If you love the shakes that much, why not have it for breakfast? Then maintain a healthy eating habit the rest of the day. When not stressed (for me) the shakes gave me energy, they made me feel better. So, I don't know what the answer is right now, but I don't have to figure that out yet.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Day 14 of 90
So today marks 2 weeks in on the 90-day challenge. I am not doing so hot, though. I am actually up a pound from last week. That means my total lost for the 90 days is 1 1/2 pounds so far. Very disappointed in myself, but that is ok. I am feeling so super stressed lately, and my face is really showing it. I am broken out so bad, I feel like I am 15 again.
Today is my birthday, and I wish I could feel better about myself. I am upset with myself for eating like I did over the weekend. And for the snacks that I should be eating, healthy snacks instead of crackers and such. I know I should move on, but when the scale doesn't move, it's like my motivation is stuck with it. I just don't know how to change that.
I have clothes to change into tonight, and the plan is to walk laps before my son's baseball game. It's just so hard when there are people that stop to talk or something like that.
I know the scale hasn't moved much, but my clothes feel slightly different, so even if the pounds are moving on the scale, they are moving in the body. And that is the most important thing. I still love my shakes. They fill me up so well. It's the snacking (when I am not hungry) that is giving me pains. I am so jealous of women that can eat whatever they want and not gain any weight. And there are some out there, I know a few of them.
Time to move forward. Time to get this together. Actions, not words! I can do this!
Today is my birthday, and I wish I could feel better about myself. I am upset with myself for eating like I did over the weekend. And for the snacks that I should be eating, healthy snacks instead of crackers and such. I know I should move on, but when the scale doesn't move, it's like my motivation is stuck with it. I just don't know how to change that.
I have clothes to change into tonight, and the plan is to walk laps before my son's baseball game. It's just so hard when there are people that stop to talk or something like that.
I know the scale hasn't moved much, but my clothes feel slightly different, so even if the pounds are moving on the scale, they are moving in the body. And that is the most important thing. I still love my shakes. They fill me up so well. It's the snacking (when I am not hungry) that is giving me pains. I am so jealous of women that can eat whatever they want and not gain any weight. And there are some out there, I know a few of them.
Time to move forward. Time to get this together. Actions, not words! I can do this!
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