This is less of a rant and more of a therapy session for myself, I think...
So, I've had a LOT of time to think about some things lately. First off being I am really down lately. I am normally one of the most positive people, always glass half full, not worrying about things because worry never solve anything. But I find myself sitting at home crying for no reason, driving down the road crying for no reason, taking a shower crying for no reason....so I think I just need to get some things off my chest and maybe clear the air for me some.
I think the heaviest thing weighing on me right now is how some members of my family seem to think that it's ok to pick and choose when they want to be a part of my life. I have certain members that have not seen or had a conversation with me or my children since around 2008. And this was in part due to the person that I was involved with, then later married to...again. This is my theory on this situation... I am not perfect, and I have made more mistakes than I care to count. But, there is NOTHING in this WHOLE WIDE WORLD that would make me not want to talk to or see my children or grandchildren. I am sure in the future there will be times that I do not agree with decisions they make or the people they date, but I would freakin' suck it up, possibly make my opinions known, but still make EVERY effort to be in their lives. I don't care how old they are, they are my children and I will love them unconditionally. That being said, I feel like I was given up on and tossed away because I was trying to be happy and working on my family. Even if I'm not in a relationship with him, guess what, he will be in my life, he is the father of my children and there are things we have to do and decisions we have to make together, as parents. You don't have to like my decisions, you don't have to approve of my decisions, but dammit... as a parent IT IS REQUIRED that you love and support your children. I guess I might not ever understand... because now that we are separated again, they are trying to be a part of my life again. That's not the way this is supposed to work...
Second off...I seem to have lost several friends over the years. I don't have any real close friends like I used to. I have one I love very much, and that friendship is fairly new, we've only known each other for 6 months, but feels like much longer. I miss the friends that I had, and part of that is my fault for leaving the state like I did last year, because some of the friends I feel I lost, I worked with and when I left my job, the friendships went with it. Unrelated friendship...I went driving the other day to try to clear my head and drove past an old friends house, someone I have known since I was about 12 or so, someone I spent many, many nights just talking about anything and everything. I even saw him outside as I passed his house, but unfortunately I didn't feel I was close enough to him anymore to even stop and say hi. That hurt my heart more than you can imagine. As much as I cherish the friend that is my soul sister here in Lebanon, I can't wait to move back to Camdenton so I might be able to build some of those friendships back up. I miss you...
And third....my work hours are stressing me to no end. I freakin' LOVE what I do, but working nights and only sleeping 3, 4, sometimes up to 6 hours (if I'm lucky) is taxing my mind, my body and my soul. I have been looking for a daytime position for months now, and nothing is opening up for me and I am getting very frustrated. My boys don't like to be at my house when I am working because I sleep half the day away when they are there, which I completely understand, I wouldn't want to be there either if I were them. They have been living with their dad and just visiting me on my weekends/days off and that is taking a huge toll on me as well. I have never been away from them for any length of time, and I miss them more than I can ever say. They are the main reason I am moving back to Camdenton as soon as I can. They both want to go to school there, and if I am in another school district, then they can't be with me whenever they want, and that really does not work for me. I am a mother, first and foremost...there's not a lot I know how to do besides be a mother, that's all I have ever been...and I think I'm good at it. At least I hope so...
It's funny I am writing this on the blog that I started back when I started a weight loss journey a couple years ago....as that is another thing that has me unhappy. I am overweight, I feel terrible most days, I have headaches, and back aches and knee pain. I hate the way I look, but I've always given up on being healthy. I'll eat right, go to the gym, lose some weight, feel better, then something always gets in the way, just life normally, but I let it...not an excuse, just the truth. You know, I watch some of these weight loss shows on television and they all say that there are things inside that make us the way we are on the outside. Things in our lives that make us overeat, not feel worthy of being healthy, and I used to think that I didn't have any of that stuff. I had a pretty happy childhood, I was not abused mentally or physically. I was pretty physically active, playing with my brother and cousins a lot. My mother told me that I became anorexic at a very young age because of something someone said to me about eating too much or something of the sort. Then after that was under control....I don't know, I guess she didn't want it to happen again so I was allowed to eat whatever I wanted. I don't remember being anorexic, but I don't remember a whole lot from before I was about 5 or 6 years old. But anyway, back to the whole "things on the inside" that make us the way we are....I've tried every get thin quick idea out there, I've been on prescription medication, over the counter medication, tried almost every "diet," bought books upon books, and workout dvd's, gym memberships....but every time I give up on myself. Maybe it was because my mother and biological father divorced when I was young and as far as I know, he made no real attempt to be in my life...he gave up on me. As an adult I cannot count the times my mother has not spoken for me for given lengths of time because of decisions I've made...she gave up on me. My marriage has not ended once, but twice....we gave up on each other. I want to be there for my kids, I don't want to die at an early age and not be there for them....I don't want them to feel like I gave up on them.
So this is me....getting all this out. Putting all this hurt on paper (digital paper) and hoping that it helps relieve some of the worry, hurt and stress I've had the last several months.
This is me, standing up and taking back my life.
This is me, wanting to be loved....deserving to be loved.
This is me, starting over...again.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Friday, July 13, 2012
Long Time No See
It has been awhile since I have posted on here. Just thought I would write a quick note to let you know I am still alive! I have still been drinking my shakes, most days twice a day, sometimes once a day. The problem has been that I have been at the ball field most nights of the week, busy catching up on housework on the weekends (as well as trying to catch up rest, sleep and sanity. Had some changes at work, so now I am training a new person to do my old job, as well as learning a new position, and working an extra hour a day there.
As well as the fact that I have not been eating dinners and snacks like I should. Have been eating junk food, drinking soda and sweet tea.
I am over 6 months into this year, and have only lost a total of probably 10 pounds. I have not weighed recently, so that may not even be accurate. I am so disappointed in myself, but life has gotten in the way so many times, that it is easier to just give in.
Willpower is a problem. Especially for me. I know I have to make getting fit my life, but I have lived 33 years unfit, and the change is hard. I never said it was going to be easy, and I am ready to make the change. I see the difference in my body now that I have gained some of the weight back. I feel like my stomach sticks out even more than it used to. It makes me sick. But I feel so defeated. I am getting up at 5:30 am to be at work early, getting off at 5:00 pm, either to the ball fields or home first, then to the fields, practice for 2 hours, then home for dinner and trying to relax a bit before bed.
We have a little over 2 more weeks of baseball. I am hoping once that slows down a bit, I can get back into the gym after workdays. I was trying to go in the morning, but that only happened two or three times, then kaput.
I don't know if anyone is still reading this, but if you are please know that I know that you are probably going through the same things I am. And you are probably making time for the gym, and I am not. I know alot of people out there who make time, but I just can't seem to right now. I know part of that is my energy levels, and most of that problem is my diet. I will change it, but for now convenience food is of course more convenient.
Don't give up on me. I haven't given up on myself, even though I don't like the choices I am making and am disappointed in myself. I will keep on trying, and will succeed eventually!
As well as the fact that I have not been eating dinners and snacks like I should. Have been eating junk food, drinking soda and sweet tea.
I am over 6 months into this year, and have only lost a total of probably 10 pounds. I have not weighed recently, so that may not even be accurate. I am so disappointed in myself, but life has gotten in the way so many times, that it is easier to just give in.
Willpower is a problem. Especially for me. I know I have to make getting fit my life, but I have lived 33 years unfit, and the change is hard. I never said it was going to be easy, and I am ready to make the change. I see the difference in my body now that I have gained some of the weight back. I feel like my stomach sticks out even more than it used to. It makes me sick. But I feel so defeated. I am getting up at 5:30 am to be at work early, getting off at 5:00 pm, either to the ball fields or home first, then to the fields, practice for 2 hours, then home for dinner and trying to relax a bit before bed.
We have a little over 2 more weeks of baseball. I am hoping once that slows down a bit, I can get back into the gym after workdays. I was trying to go in the morning, but that only happened two or three times, then kaput.
I don't know if anyone is still reading this, but if you are please know that I know that you are probably going through the same things I am. And you are probably making time for the gym, and I am not. I know alot of people out there who make time, but I just can't seem to right now. I know part of that is my energy levels, and most of that problem is my diet. I will change it, but for now convenience food is of course more convenient.
Don't give up on me. I haven't given up on myself, even though I don't like the choices I am making and am disappointed in myself. I will keep on trying, and will succeed eventually!
Friday, June 15, 2012
Running Behind
As usual.... I have been pretty lax in my blogging lately, and that is because I have been completely exhausted from baseball games every stinkin' night of the week and practices twice on Saturday. SO, have made a statement to my husband that come Monday I will be eating nothing that I am not supposed to. Have been eating at the ball field alot... snacks and stuff. Will either have to eat at home/work before the games, take a small (healthy) snack with me, and/or eat when I get home at 9:00 pm. Gonna suck, and take some more energy, but hopefully eating better and getting (slowly) back to the gym... all will be well.
So, hope to see you more next week, and every week after!
So, hope to see you more next week, and every week after!
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Another Day Closer...
I had the day off from work yesterday to get some things accomplished. Met with a friend in the morning for a hopefully lucrative new venture, then hung out with my hubby, and then the dentist. Always love getting good news (:P), ie. root canal, deep cleaning, and a crown needed. Yippee for me!
We got up early this morning (5:00 a.m.) and went to the gym. That gives us time to get there and back, and to work out for about 45 minutes to an hour. Might have to start getting up earlier once I get back into this, there were times when I needed an hour and a half to get all my stuff done. So we shall see how the morning routine sticks it out. I did walk a bit faster today. Tuesday was at 2.0 mph and a 2.0 incline, today was at 2.5 mph and a 1.5 incline starting out, then went up to 2.7 mph. I will get back to where I was, just have to take it one step at a time... I definitely still need to work on my food choices. The shakes are working well for me, I am not hungry on them, they fill me up, and taste great, of course. It's the time in between the end of work at dinner time that is an obstacle for me. Especially when I am at the ball field almost every night. I get a little hungry, and of course don't have any healthy snacks with me, so I get some nachos, or a pretzel, or a candy bar... and then I eat dinner when we get home.
Having some issues with my scale. Not sure it is because of the uneven boards in my bathroom or because it is ready for a new battery, but this morning I weighed first at 286.4 and was so disgusted. Then my husband asked what was wrong, so I told him that I had gained weight. He then told me he weighed the other day 3 times in a 5 minute period, and each time was different. So I wiped off the bottom of the scale, put it on a flatter spot on the floor and re-weighed, and weighed in at 285.2 pounds. Which is 0.4 pounds down from Tuesday. My hands were really swollen again this morning (was hardly able to move my rings), so really need to start watching my salt I guess.
Time is short today, so that will be all. Baseball again tonight. Hopefully once that is all done, I will be able to get myself a bit more organized so this can go a bit smoother and quicker. Just never seems to get done with all the other stuff going on...
We got up early this morning (5:00 a.m.) and went to the gym. That gives us time to get there and back, and to work out for about 45 minutes to an hour. Might have to start getting up earlier once I get back into this, there were times when I needed an hour and a half to get all my stuff done. So we shall see how the morning routine sticks it out. I did walk a bit faster today. Tuesday was at 2.0 mph and a 2.0 incline, today was at 2.5 mph and a 1.5 incline starting out, then went up to 2.7 mph. I will get back to where I was, just have to take it one step at a time... I definitely still need to work on my food choices. The shakes are working well for me, I am not hungry on them, they fill me up, and taste great, of course. It's the time in between the end of work at dinner time that is an obstacle for me. Especially when I am at the ball field almost every night. I get a little hungry, and of course don't have any healthy snacks with me, so I get some nachos, or a pretzel, or a candy bar... and then I eat dinner when we get home.
Having some issues with my scale. Not sure it is because of the uneven boards in my bathroom or because it is ready for a new battery, but this morning I weighed first at 286.4 and was so disgusted. Then my husband asked what was wrong, so I told him that I had gained weight. He then told me he weighed the other day 3 times in a 5 minute period, and each time was different. So I wiped off the bottom of the scale, put it on a flatter spot on the floor and re-weighed, and weighed in at 285.2 pounds. Which is 0.4 pounds down from Tuesday. My hands were really swollen again this morning (was hardly able to move my rings), so really need to start watching my salt I guess.
Time is short today, so that will be all. Baseball again tonight. Hopefully once that is all done, I will be able to get myself a bit more organized so this can go a bit smoother and quicker. Just never seems to get done with all the other stuff going on...
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
A New Start
So, I feel like I am starting the whole journey over again as of today. My husband and I got up early and went to the gym. I walked (slowly) for 45 minutes straight. I was a little frustrated at walking so slow, but felt if I went faster I wouldn't have been able to make it as long. Plus, for the last 3 days my calf muscles have been crying out because of all the stairs/walking I did on Saturday. They are still sore today! I was feeling I was going as fast as I could, but was pissed at myself for not going faster because I started out at faster than that at the beginning of the year!
I have gained back alot of the weight I had lost. I am only down a total of 11 pounds since my start at the first of the year. But I am starting over. I am determined to do what works for me. Weighing every day works for me. The ViSalus shakes work for me. Working out works for me. Counting the days does not work for me. So, as of today, I will not be posting how many days I have been going (and let's face, I lost count a month or so ago!). I will however, be posting my weight. Today's weight was 285.6 pounds. I have dealt with the fact that I may not reach my initial goal of losing 125 pounds by the end of the year. But there are lots of people out there that lose 100 pounds in 6 months, and do it healthy. So, I have no excuses not to reach my goal. I am still gung ho on reaching that, but I am resigned to the fact that it just may not happen. So whatever weight I reach, I will reach it healthy. I will eventually reach the 125 pounds lost mark, but it may not be this year. Small goals will be set, and I will reach them as I can. I will be smart about what I eat, how I fuel my body, and the rest will come!
Someone asked me the other day what I was waiting for. That I can make the choices or make the excuses. And I know I have had so many lately. I own up to the fact that I "cannot" find the way to make it to the gym. Also, I think a part of me is kinda scared. I have never been fit, or skinny or whatever you want to call it. My husband always asks me when I lose all this weight, if I will still be with him or go find some hot young stud?! I think I have that same fear... when I lose all this weight (and he has never seen me fit...) is he still gonna want me? I know that is kinda a really irrational fear, cuz who wouldn't want a hot wife, right?
I have gained back alot of the weight I had lost. I am only down a total of 11 pounds since my start at the first of the year. But I am starting over. I am determined to do what works for me. Weighing every day works for me. The ViSalus shakes work for me. Working out works for me. Counting the days does not work for me. So, as of today, I will not be posting how many days I have been going (and let's face, I lost count a month or so ago!). I will however, be posting my weight. Today's weight was 285.6 pounds. I have dealt with the fact that I may not reach my initial goal of losing 125 pounds by the end of the year. But there are lots of people out there that lose 100 pounds in 6 months, and do it healthy. So, I have no excuses not to reach my goal. I am still gung ho on reaching that, but I am resigned to the fact that it just may not happen. So whatever weight I reach, I will reach it healthy. I will eventually reach the 125 pounds lost mark, but it may not be this year. Small goals will be set, and I will reach them as I can. I will be smart about what I eat, how I fuel my body, and the rest will come!
Someone asked me the other day what I was waiting for. That I can make the choices or make the excuses. And I know I have had so many lately. I own up to the fact that I "cannot" find the way to make it to the gym. Also, I think a part of me is kinda scared. I have never been fit, or skinny or whatever you want to call it. My husband always asks me when I lose all this weight, if I will still be with him or go find some hot young stud?! I think I have that same fear... when I lose all this weight (and he has never seen me fit...) is he still gonna want me? I know that is kinda a really irrational fear, cuz who wouldn't want a hot wife, right?
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Day 27 of 90
So tomorrow marks 4 weeks into my challenge. Again, not looking forward to weighing in. Still haven't been getting to the gym, still haven't been doing the videos at home. Have been trying to walk at the ball park, but doesn't always happen.
I feel like this blog has just became a whining board for me. I don't ever seem to be getting anywhere, and I know that is my own fault. I am sorry for those of you that read this!
I only have 2 more weeks or so of ball games, hopefully the gym portion of my journey will open back up a bit! I had some more tools given to me by Kassi with the ViSalus company. She hooked me up with some protein packed chocolate chip cookies, which are divine, as well as some energy "stuff" and some appetite control. Today is the first day using these tools. The one thing I can say so far... I took one of the energy packets at lunch as I was yawning during my lunch hour. I don't remember yawning since. I wasn't really feeling tired, just yawning. But again, no yawning.
Things have been a little crazy around my house lately, I have had alot of things going on, alot of things NOT going on, and it has been a little stressful and hectic. I am hoping things will get back on track soon. Wish it was something I had control over, then I would just fix it. But alas, tis not... so I will wait it out, and hope for some good news soon.
Thanks to everyone for hanging with me on this journey. It hasn't really been going as planned- weight loss, working out, cooking, or this blog, but I will get it lined out soon. It's a trial and error, seems like more error than trial on my part, but still working for it!
I feel like this blog has just became a whining board for me. I don't ever seem to be getting anywhere, and I know that is my own fault. I am sorry for those of you that read this!
I only have 2 more weeks or so of ball games, hopefully the gym portion of my journey will open back up a bit! I had some more tools given to me by Kassi with the ViSalus company. She hooked me up with some protein packed chocolate chip cookies, which are divine, as well as some energy "stuff" and some appetite control. Today is the first day using these tools. The one thing I can say so far... I took one of the energy packets at lunch as I was yawning during my lunch hour. I don't remember yawning since. I wasn't really feeling tired, just yawning. But again, no yawning.
Things have been a little crazy around my house lately, I have had alot of things going on, alot of things NOT going on, and it has been a little stressful and hectic. I am hoping things will get back on track soon. Wish it was something I had control over, then I would just fix it. But alas, tis not... so I will wait it out, and hope for some good news soon.
Thanks to everyone for hanging with me on this journey. It hasn't really been going as planned- weight loss, working out, cooking, or this blog, but I will get it lined out soon. It's a trial and error, seems like more error than trial on my part, but still working for it!
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Day 20 of 90
Tomorrow will be 3 weeks into my challenge. I am not looking forward to weighing myself tomorrow. I will measure tomorrow as well. I am hoping for some change in inches, as the scale is betraying me! LOL I am a little scared that the inches will not have changed either, but that is completely my fault too, so no one to blame but me! I think my mindset has taken a vacation. At the beginning of the year, I was going to the gym everyday. I enjoyed going to the gym everyday. It's not that I have changed my mindset, I still want to see this through. I just think that it's taken some time off. And I don't really have time for that. I have a certain goal, and unfortunately, I am not sure I will reach my initial goal by the end of the year. I just have to get my mind, body, and heart back on track and I can reach my goal. Maybe not by the end of the year, but I will reach it nonetheless.
I am the creator of my own destiny. I am the one that makes the decisions on how I live my life. And I want to live my life to the fullest. With that being said, decisions on my part need to be made. Motivation and determination need to be the new mindset. I know how hard it is growing up overweight. I don't want my kids to have to endure that pain and rejection that many of us have went through. On a positive note, being overweight through school has "toughened" me up a bit. Things don't get to me like they used to. When something happens that I don't like, I deal with it and move on. I don't dwell on things too long. I have learned that being upset about what people say about you, or dwelling on an argument you have had, just takes time away from you being happy or being productive. I have been ridiculed my entire life, mostly over my weight. But let me tell you one thing... I promise I know what it is like. I have went through it all. In school, not only was I overweight, but I wore glasses, and had braces. So trust me... I have been where you have been, I have went through what you have went through.
When you look in the mirror, see what you want to see. See what's in the inside, and it will project to the outside. As long as you are happy with who you are, inside and out, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
I am overdue on my readiness for change. I have been ready for change for years. I just haven't really worked for the change. I will get my motivation back, whether it likes it or not! I just have to be tough with it. I have to be tough with myself. I will have to deprive myself of the things that I think I want. That cookie, that cake, those chips are not worth it. Today, the change comes back!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Day 19 of 90
So really feeling down in the dumps. I cannot seem to stop eating. The scale is not moving down, in fact it is creeping back up. Still not back to my starting weight of this 90 day challenge, but close. My stress has taken a huge toll on my willpower. I am craving all kinds of junk, cookies, candy, cakes, chips... it's not good!
And I am SOOOO tired! I know part of it is because I forget to take my vitamins. Something about the days I take them, I am not quite as tired, but most of it is because I am being sedentary. I was almost never TIRED when I was working out. I may have been exhausted, or worn out, but never tired. So, here's the plan...
With all the ball games and other things going on right now, it is just not feasible for me to go to the gym after work like I had been. I love going to the classes I was going to, but they start right after work on days that I have ball games on some nights. Every week the game schedule is different, so it is hard to make a schedule of my own. So, the day will just have to start early. I can do early. I get up at 5:30 am on Saturday mornings so my boys can be at ball practice by 7:00. I guess I can do that any other day.
People have asked me if I plan to stay on the shakes the rest of my life. The answer is I don't know. There are people that have lost weight, then maintained with one shake a day. If you love the shakes that much, why not have it for breakfast? Then maintain a healthy eating habit the rest of the day. When not stressed (for me) the shakes gave me energy, they made me feel better. So, I don't know what the answer is right now, but I don't have to figure that out yet.
And I am SOOOO tired! I know part of it is because I forget to take my vitamins. Something about the days I take them, I am not quite as tired, but most of it is because I am being sedentary. I was almost never TIRED when I was working out. I may have been exhausted, or worn out, but never tired. So, here's the plan...
With all the ball games and other things going on right now, it is just not feasible for me to go to the gym after work like I had been. I love going to the classes I was going to, but they start right after work on days that I have ball games on some nights. Every week the game schedule is different, so it is hard to make a schedule of my own. So, the day will just have to start early. I can do early. I get up at 5:30 am on Saturday mornings so my boys can be at ball practice by 7:00. I guess I can do that any other day.
People have asked me if I plan to stay on the shakes the rest of my life. The answer is I don't know. There are people that have lost weight, then maintained with one shake a day. If you love the shakes that much, why not have it for breakfast? Then maintain a healthy eating habit the rest of the day. When not stressed (for me) the shakes gave me energy, they made me feel better. So, I don't know what the answer is right now, but I don't have to figure that out yet.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Day 14 of 90
So today marks 2 weeks in on the 90-day challenge. I am not doing so hot, though. I am actually up a pound from last week. That means my total lost for the 90 days is 1 1/2 pounds so far. Very disappointed in myself, but that is ok. I am feeling so super stressed lately, and my face is really showing it. I am broken out so bad, I feel like I am 15 again.
Today is my birthday, and I wish I could feel better about myself. I am upset with myself for eating like I did over the weekend. And for the snacks that I should be eating, healthy snacks instead of crackers and such. I know I should move on, but when the scale doesn't move, it's like my motivation is stuck with it. I just don't know how to change that.
I have clothes to change into tonight, and the plan is to walk laps before my son's baseball game. It's just so hard when there are people that stop to talk or something like that.
I know the scale hasn't moved much, but my clothes feel slightly different, so even if the pounds are moving on the scale, they are moving in the body. And that is the most important thing. I still love my shakes. They fill me up so well. It's the snacking (when I am not hungry) that is giving me pains. I am so jealous of women that can eat whatever they want and not gain any weight. And there are some out there, I know a few of them.
Time to move forward. Time to get this together. Actions, not words! I can do this!
Today is my birthday, and I wish I could feel better about myself. I am upset with myself for eating like I did over the weekend. And for the snacks that I should be eating, healthy snacks instead of crackers and such. I know I should move on, but when the scale doesn't move, it's like my motivation is stuck with it. I just don't know how to change that.
I have clothes to change into tonight, and the plan is to walk laps before my son's baseball game. It's just so hard when there are people that stop to talk or something like that.
I know the scale hasn't moved much, but my clothes feel slightly different, so even if the pounds are moving on the scale, they are moving in the body. And that is the most important thing. I still love my shakes. They fill me up so well. It's the snacking (when I am not hungry) that is giving me pains. I am so jealous of women that can eat whatever they want and not gain any weight. And there are some out there, I know a few of them.
Time to move forward. Time to get this together. Actions, not words! I can do this!
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Day 12 of 90
Ok, so I am going to stop counting the days into the year I am, and right now focus on the days I am into the 90-day challenge. Gets too confusing the other way.
I haven't weighed since last Thursday. New weigh-in day is 2 days away. I am really concerned about it. I have some extra things weighing on my mind these days, and Sunday my good food choices were nowhere to be found! Hubby and I were both just feeling the need for junk. I don't really know what it was, but just ate a bunch of stuff I didn't even want, and of course they were horrible choices.
I have said in the past that I don't normally eat emotionally, but I think this is the exception to my rule. I don't know what it has been here recently, but with stuff going on in our lives, I have been a bit more stressed than normal (especially since I am really good at letting things roll off my back, not worrying about a whole lot, just a "what will be, will be" mentality!) Not only have I not been eating properly, I have not been exercising, and making up almost any kind of excuse not to... which makes for a grouchy, exhausted Billie. Not good!
I am in such a self-loathing state of mind right now. I am hating myself for letting myself fall back into the no-workout routine. I loved going to the gym, and it was part of my routine at the first of the year... now it seems I can't hardly get the energy to walk around the ball field a couple times. And it is nothing but the fact that I am not exercising. I still feel great taking the shakes. I have not hunger pangs, just making bad choices. They fill me up completely, and have not been craving anything (well except for Sunday, just had a hankerin' for junk then...). I still get to eat normal food, so I am not depriving myself of anything. I just don't get it.
This is probably why me working out at home has never worked out. Because I find reasons not to. I have all kinds of workout videos at home, just never seem to a) get them done in the first place or, b) continue them on a routine basis.
Well, I hope things get better. This stress stuff is for the birds!
I haven't weighed since last Thursday. New weigh-in day is 2 days away. I am really concerned about it. I have some extra things weighing on my mind these days, and Sunday my good food choices were nowhere to be found! Hubby and I were both just feeling the need for junk. I don't really know what it was, but just ate a bunch of stuff I didn't even want, and of course they were horrible choices.
I have said in the past that I don't normally eat emotionally, but I think this is the exception to my rule. I don't know what it has been here recently, but with stuff going on in our lives, I have been a bit more stressed than normal (especially since I am really good at letting things roll off my back, not worrying about a whole lot, just a "what will be, will be" mentality!) Not only have I not been eating properly, I have not been exercising, and making up almost any kind of excuse not to... which makes for a grouchy, exhausted Billie. Not good!
I am in such a self-loathing state of mind right now. I am hating myself for letting myself fall back into the no-workout routine. I loved going to the gym, and it was part of my routine at the first of the year... now it seems I can't hardly get the energy to walk around the ball field a couple times. And it is nothing but the fact that I am not exercising. I still feel great taking the shakes. I have not hunger pangs, just making bad choices. They fill me up completely, and have not been craving anything (well except for Sunday, just had a hankerin' for junk then...). I still get to eat normal food, so I am not depriving myself of anything. I just don't get it.
This is probably why me working out at home has never worked out. Because I find reasons not to. I have all kinds of workout videos at home, just never seem to a) get them done in the first place or, b) continue them on a routine basis.
Well, I hope things get better. This stress stuff is for the birds!
Friday, May 4, 2012
Day 123 or Day 8 of 90
So today is Day 8 of the 90-day challenge. I weighed in yesterday at 276.8 pounds, which is 2 1/2 pounds down from day 1 of the challenge. My husband is down 4 pounds and our friend that started the challenge with us was down 3 pounds. That is without any exercise on at least mine and my husband's part. Not because we don't want to, just because we have been so busy with ball games and practice, and general life...
Again back to the organizational skills of myself... just need to schedule it in and do it, just not sure when I will have that opportunity. I will probably start working out at home, because games are always after work, and practice is at 7:30 am on Saturdays! Way too early. I definitely just need to walk on those Saturday mornings instead of sitting and watching. That's what games are for...
The shake thing is going great. I definitely need to get more recipes down, and get the stuff to keep on hand to make more than just the 4 or 5 I have been making. Not that I don't love the shakes I am making, because I do, but the hubby likes more variety than I do... LOL.
I got my three people to sign up under me, so my shake mix for the next month is FREE! Who doesn't love FREE?!
This is the year than my beginnings are bygones. I am ready to make my ending whatever I want it to be. Not what it was going to be, which was probably shorter than anyone wanted. I want to be here to enjoy my kids and grandkids. I want to be able to play with them, not just hold them and look at them...
I can see the road ahead, and it is a long one. But it is a bright one. It is lined with good intentions, and great health. It was funny this morning, my friend, Deanna told me that I could borrow her skinny shorts (size 4) when I lose all my weight. I told her that if I ever got down to a size 4, she better expect me on her doorstep with hands outstretched! I doubt I will ever make a size 4, and that is ok with me. I am looking for health, at whatever size that comes in. I just know it's not the size I am right now!
I hope everyone takes advantage of the gorgeous weekend we have coming up. Get out at move (as I will aspire to do on Saturday morning)!
Again back to the organizational skills of myself... just need to schedule it in and do it, just not sure when I will have that opportunity. I will probably start working out at home, because games are always after work, and practice is at 7:30 am on Saturdays! Way too early. I definitely just need to walk on those Saturday mornings instead of sitting and watching. That's what games are for...
The shake thing is going great. I definitely need to get more recipes down, and get the stuff to keep on hand to make more than just the 4 or 5 I have been making. Not that I don't love the shakes I am making, because I do, but the hubby likes more variety than I do... LOL.
I got my three people to sign up under me, so my shake mix for the next month is FREE! Who doesn't love FREE?!
This is the year than my beginnings are bygones. I am ready to make my ending whatever I want it to be. Not what it was going to be, which was probably shorter than anyone wanted. I want to be here to enjoy my kids and grandkids. I want to be able to play with them, not just hold them and look at them...
I can see the road ahead, and it is a long one. But it is a bright one. It is lined with good intentions, and great health. It was funny this morning, my friend, Deanna told me that I could borrow her skinny shorts (size 4) when I lose all my weight. I told her that if I ever got down to a size 4, she better expect me on her doorstep with hands outstretched! I doubt I will ever make a size 4, and that is ok with me. I am looking for health, at whatever size that comes in. I just know it's not the size I am right now!
I hope everyone takes advantage of the gorgeous weekend we have coming up. Get out at move (as I will aspire to do on Saturday morning)!
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Day 120- 5 of 90-day Challenge
So, this is day 120 of the journey as a whole. I know I promised pictures, and I have them, but they are not where I would want them to be. Which is ok, as it is a work in progress and I am working (if not slowly) towards the goal. What I have is a before and after shot, as close to the original pose as possible. I will post at the end of this, if nothing else but to make you read the whole thing... LOL!
It is Day 5 of my 90-day Challenge. I am not feeling as good as I did a few weeks ago when I was on my samples, but I am almost positive that is because of it being that time of the month. I don't know what it is, but the last couple years, I get exhausted, and weak, and crabby of course. I with there was something that would take care of that! And I think I am doing it. Losing weight will help, I am told.
I haven't weighed back in since I started my 90 day challenge. I am trying to be good, and only weigh in once a week or so. That week is not until Thursday. We shall see if I can wait that long. Still doing pretty good with meals with the family. Haven't been too horrible. We did go to a going away party for my husband's cousin, and I did indulge in a hamburger and a hot dog. YUM!
This morning I had a peanut butter cup for breakfast, and of course my fave, a banana cream pie for lunch. Not sure what I will have for dinner, as I forgot to lay something out of the freezer....
I am going to have to start getting back to the gym, or walking on the nights the boys have ball games or something. This weight is not coming off like it should. And it would help with the tiredness I am feeling at the moment. I am going to try to do the Insanity videos. I haven't tried those yet, so we shall see how that goes. If all goes well, I should see some real results! That is, if I don't have a heart attack while doing them.... LOL.
Ok, so here are the pictures. I am going to cut this off for today. It has been crazy at work, and I normally write during my lunch hour, but that has been a little crazy lately too. So, trying to squeeze this in whenever I can...
It is Day 5 of my 90-day Challenge. I am not feeling as good as I did a few weeks ago when I was on my samples, but I am almost positive that is because of it being that time of the month. I don't know what it is, but the last couple years, I get exhausted, and weak, and crabby of course. I with there was something that would take care of that! And I think I am doing it. Losing weight will help, I am told.
I haven't weighed back in since I started my 90 day challenge. I am trying to be good, and only weigh in once a week or so. That week is not until Thursday. We shall see if I can wait that long. Still doing pretty good with meals with the family. Haven't been too horrible. We did go to a going away party for my husband's cousin, and I did indulge in a hamburger and a hot dog. YUM!
This morning I had a peanut butter cup for breakfast, and of course my fave, a banana cream pie for lunch. Not sure what I will have for dinner, as I forgot to lay something out of the freezer....
I am going to have to start getting back to the gym, or walking on the nights the boys have ball games or something. This weight is not coming off like it should. And it would help with the tiredness I am feeling at the moment. I am going to try to do the Insanity videos. I haven't tried those yet, so we shall see how that goes. If all goes well, I should see some real results! That is, if I don't have a heart attack while doing them.... LOL.
Ok, so here are the pictures. I am going to cut this off for today. It has been crazy at work, and I normally write during my lunch hour, but that has been a little crazy lately too. So, trying to squeeze this in whenever I can...
Friday, April 27, 2012
Day 116 - - Day 2 of 90
So today is Day 2 of my 90-day Body By Vi Challenge. I am feeling pretty good. I don't think I slept very well last night, my eyes are very tired today. Could be the fact that we were at the ball field again last night, and the pollen and grass got to me!
Yesterday, I had a Vanilla Coffee and a Pumpkin Pie shake. Today was a Fruit Smoothie and Banana Cream Pie. I do love these shakes. They are way too yummy to be good for you. I haven't had a hunger pang yet.
My husband is doing it as well. He loves it too! He hasn't had any issues of hunger or anything else either. He normally has issues of low blood sugar, if he doesn't eat every couple hours, he gets the shakes, and headaches, etc. He has had no issues with these so far!
Today is short and sweet, been a little hectic today, so I don't have much time. Just thought I would check in with everyone and let you know things are going great!
I did take before photos of my 90-day challenge, and that is in addition to the before photos I had taken at the first of the year. Only about 20 pounds difference in the two photos, but you can see the difference. I will post those later.
Have a great weekend!
Yesterday, I had a Vanilla Coffee and a Pumpkin Pie shake. Today was a Fruit Smoothie and Banana Cream Pie. I do love these shakes. They are way too yummy to be good for you. I haven't had a hunger pang yet.
My husband is doing it as well. He loves it too! He hasn't had any issues of hunger or anything else either. He normally has issues of low blood sugar, if he doesn't eat every couple hours, he gets the shakes, and headaches, etc. He has had no issues with these so far!
Today is short and sweet, been a little hectic today, so I don't have much time. Just thought I would check in with everyone and let you know things are going great!
I did take before photos of my 90-day challenge, and that is in addition to the before photos I had taken at the first of the year. Only about 20 pounds difference in the two photos, but you can see the difference. I will post those later.
Have a great weekend!
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Day 114
So, my Visalus shake mix finally got here today! I am so excited. I was feeling junk-foody yesterday, so I had Chinese for lunch. Bad Girl, I know. I have been super tired and lagging all this week. I can't wait to get shakin' tomorrow, get my energy back, and start losing some real pounds!
I went to a class last night at Abs & Glutes, and let me tell you I am feeling both of those things, as well as every other muscle in my body today! It was great and I felt good afterwards, other than not being able to move much! LOL I have a ball game next Tuesday, but will be going back as much as I can. That class works so much, surely it will help! Plus need to start back working out regularly, it's just so hard to do that when I have ball games on different nights each week. But I will get to it, will figure out what I have to do to get the most benefit from the Shake Challenge and working out!
I am excited about this challenge. It's a 90-day Challenge, starts tomorrow, and my husband is doing it with me. I have one other person signed up with me, and her shipment will hopefully be here today as well! I am just so tired as I write this right now, my eyes are droopy and heavy, and I could really just go home and take a nap. I can't wait to start shakin' tomorrow so I can have the energy I had last week! And it's a great time to start these, because that wonderful time of the month is coming too soon, and my energy ALWAYS lags when that comes around.
Again, if you are interested in more information about the Body By Vi Shake Challenge, please log onto: www.Billie4.BodyByVi.com and watch the short informational video! It's taking the country by storm!
I went to a class last night at Abs & Glutes, and let me tell you I am feeling both of those things, as well as every other muscle in my body today! It was great and I felt good afterwards, other than not being able to move much! LOL I have a ball game next Tuesday, but will be going back as much as I can. That class works so much, surely it will help! Plus need to start back working out regularly, it's just so hard to do that when I have ball games on different nights each week. But I will get to it, will figure out what I have to do to get the most benefit from the Shake Challenge and working out!
I am excited about this challenge. It's a 90-day Challenge, starts tomorrow, and my husband is doing it with me. I have one other person signed up with me, and her shipment will hopefully be here today as well! I am just so tired as I write this right now, my eyes are droopy and heavy, and I could really just go home and take a nap. I can't wait to start shakin' tomorrow so I can have the energy I had last week! And it's a great time to start these, because that wonderful time of the month is coming too soon, and my energy ALWAYS lags when that comes around.
Again, if you are interested in more information about the Body By Vi Shake Challenge, please log onto: www.Billie4.BodyByVi.com and watch the short informational video! It's taking the country by storm!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Day 112
So I ordered my shakes last week. And so did my husband. The shipments are supposed to be here tomorrow. I haven't weighed in, but that is just because I am waiting to do so the day I start my "real" 90-day challenge. I weighed and measured last week to see how well my samples did and was amazed.
We were busy, busy people this weekend. We had our annual Dogwood Festival here in town, so we watched the parade, walked to the school where they have all the craft booths set up, browsed around those, played catch with the boys... Sunday, I cleaned my office, went grocery shopping, made homemade laundry soap, did laundry and made homemade and low-cal Ranch dressing!! It is yummy!!
Homemade Ranch Dressing
1 cup plain Greek yogurt
1 pkg Ranch dressing mix (make sure you get the dressing and not the dip)
1/2 cup 1% milk
Whisk all together and done! Very easy, and the amount it makes, for the whole bottle of it, is less than 300 calories!!
Yes, I ate fair food. There is only so many times a year you can get a good funnel cake, so I had one, but I shared it with my husband! And we ate out a couple times, and I didn't get the best thing I could, and I am ok with it. I know I could have made better choices, but at that time I didn't want to. Those were the decisions I made, I have to own up to them and I do.
I am out of my Visalus shake mix, but I made myself a butterscotch protein shake this morning, and was hungry by 10:00. I don't know what the difference is between the protein shake and the Visalus, but I never felt hungry with the Visalus. So, I can't wait til my shipment gets here and I can get this ball rolling. I am having a salad for lunch, with my homemade Ranch.
We have ball games on Monday and Thursday this week, so I am hoping to go to some classes tomorrow and Wednesday to workout. Still have the "Insanity" dvd's, and if I start those, it needs to be today (on a Monday). We shall see how I feel after we get home from the ballpark and fix dinner!
This is a bit of a short one one today. Hope everyone had a great weekend. Good things to come!!
We were busy, busy people this weekend. We had our annual Dogwood Festival here in town, so we watched the parade, walked to the school where they have all the craft booths set up, browsed around those, played catch with the boys... Sunday, I cleaned my office, went grocery shopping, made homemade laundry soap, did laundry and made homemade and low-cal Ranch dressing!! It is yummy!!
Homemade Ranch Dressing
1 cup plain Greek yogurt
1 pkg Ranch dressing mix (make sure you get the dressing and not the dip)
1/2 cup 1% milk
Whisk all together and done! Very easy, and the amount it makes, for the whole bottle of it, is less than 300 calories!!
Yes, I ate fair food. There is only so many times a year you can get a good funnel cake, so I had one, but I shared it with my husband! And we ate out a couple times, and I didn't get the best thing I could, and I am ok with it. I know I could have made better choices, but at that time I didn't want to. Those were the decisions I made, I have to own up to them and I do.
I am out of my Visalus shake mix, but I made myself a butterscotch protein shake this morning, and was hungry by 10:00. I don't know what the difference is between the protein shake and the Visalus, but I never felt hungry with the Visalus. So, I can't wait til my shipment gets here and I can get this ball rolling. I am having a salad for lunch, with my homemade Ranch.
We have ball games on Monday and Thursday this week, so I am hoping to go to some classes tomorrow and Wednesday to workout. Still have the "Insanity" dvd's, and if I start those, it needs to be today (on a Monday). We shall see how I feel after we get home from the ballpark and fix dinner!
This is a bit of a short one one today. Hope everyone had a great weekend. Good things to come!!
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Day 108-276.8 pounds
So I am down exactly 5 pounds from Sunday. I know I wasn't supposed to weigh, but it's like a habit now, so I just do it. I did go to Zumba last night, had a great time, sweated like a dog, and didn't fall down! I am in the process of ordering my Shape Kit from Body by Vi, and can't wait for it to get here...
We had a lot of conversation rolling on my facebook group yesterday. About what works for you, and if you are depriving yourself or looking for a "quick fix." With these shakes, I don't feel like I am depriving myself of anything. I am the first one to say that the "quick fixes" don't work! I have tried almost every diet plan and pill that you can imagine. I finally got it in my brain that those are not going to work for me. But neither does planning out meals, that I normally don't have time to fix or won't keep in my work refrigerator. I am not a planner. It just doesn't work for me. So, I keep on hand the stuff to make 20 different kinds of these shakes, and guess what.... 5 pounds in 4 days.
If these stop working for me, then I will have to reevaluate. Just like I did with the Slim Fast I was on. Those worked for awhile, then made me feel sluggish and having pains. I stopped taking them, and I was fine. The healthier eating was working for me for awhile, I spent 2 hours one Sunday making my own "Egg McMuffin" so I could eat something filling and healthy. And it was good. But little by little I have slid back into the routine that if I don't have cereal in the house, or the time to eat it, I eat a fruit and grain bar (170 calories of NO nutrition) and coffee, then be starving by lunch, eating my leftovers from the night before (which are not bad for me), but still carving a candy bar or soda. I have not craved a candy bar or soda yet. The girls at work wanted one, went next door and bought... someone even offered to buy mine, but I said no. I just didn't have the desire for chocolate right then. And that is a Herculean feat, let me tell you!
Just got my kit ordered, and a kit for my husband! We are excited to get started!
For more information, log onto: www.billie4.bodybyvi.com
We had a lot of conversation rolling on my facebook group yesterday. About what works for you, and if you are depriving yourself or looking for a "quick fix." With these shakes, I don't feel like I am depriving myself of anything. I am the first one to say that the "quick fixes" don't work! I have tried almost every diet plan and pill that you can imagine. I finally got it in my brain that those are not going to work for me. But neither does planning out meals, that I normally don't have time to fix or won't keep in my work refrigerator. I am not a planner. It just doesn't work for me. So, I keep on hand the stuff to make 20 different kinds of these shakes, and guess what.... 5 pounds in 4 days.
If these stop working for me, then I will have to reevaluate. Just like I did with the Slim Fast I was on. Those worked for awhile, then made me feel sluggish and having pains. I stopped taking them, and I was fine. The healthier eating was working for me for awhile, I spent 2 hours one Sunday making my own "Egg McMuffin" so I could eat something filling and healthy. And it was good. But little by little I have slid back into the routine that if I don't have cereal in the house, or the time to eat it, I eat a fruit and grain bar (170 calories of NO nutrition) and coffee, then be starving by lunch, eating my leftovers from the night before (which are not bad for me), but still carving a candy bar or soda. I have not craved a candy bar or soda yet. The girls at work wanted one, went next door and bought... someone even offered to buy mine, but I said no. I just didn't have the desire for chocolate right then. And that is a Herculean feat, let me tell you!
Just got my kit ordered, and a kit for my husband! We are excited to get started!
For more information, log onto: www.billie4.bodybyvi.com
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Day 106- 278.2 pounds
Down another 0.8 pounds from yesterday. I had a mocha shake this morning, and am in the process of wishing there were more of my lunch shake, which is banana cream pie. Swear to God, it tastes just like a big ol' fluffy pie with whipped cream on top! My new fave! I can't wait to order my first shipment on Thursday!
I am so proud of my friend, Erin, who reached one of her personal goals today. And it's a big one! She has worked so hard! Congratulations, girl!
I really want to go to some of the classes one of my gyms offers, but with baseball games and practices, it is making it very difficult. Would love to go to the one tonight, called Power Pump, but my oldest son has his first baseball game tonight, and if I went to class, I would miss it! Tomorrow night is just a practice, so I might try to go to the Zumba class tomorrow night, hopefully I can still keep up!!
As for my energy level, it is pretty good. I did drink a Dr. Pepper yesterday, not really because I was craving one, but because my head kinda hurt, and it was about the time I would normally have one, so I figured it was the withdrawal from the caffeine my body normally has at that time. Unfortunately, it didn't really help... I am chalking it up to the "detox" part of these shakes. It has so much good stuff for you in them, that it clears all the bad stuff out of your body. I think it was that, because even after dinner (a real meal of chicken quesadillas, YUM), it was still hurting a bit. I don't seem to be as tired or "worn out" as I have been. I still want to sleep in, but hopefully the longer I do these, the better that gets and I can maybe have a workout before work! But at night, I am usually just ready to fall down, don't really want to cook dinner, just want to veg on the couch. But last night was different. Wasn't tired or worn out, but when bedtime rolled around, was definitely ready for sleep. Which is good, sometimes I feel so tired, but when I get ready for bed, no sleep!
I just am so proud of my friend. She said that I was her inspiration, as several other people have, but they don't realize how much of an inspiration they are to me. Some of them that started after me have lost more, and that's because they kept at it no matter what! I haven't really done that. I have fallen off the wagon more than once! But it is them who keep me going, who keep me wanting to be fit, and help motivate me more!
I am so proud of my friend, Erin, who reached one of her personal goals today. And it's a big one! She has worked so hard! Congratulations, girl!
I really want to go to some of the classes one of my gyms offers, but with baseball games and practices, it is making it very difficult. Would love to go to the one tonight, called Power Pump, but my oldest son has his first baseball game tonight, and if I went to class, I would miss it! Tomorrow night is just a practice, so I might try to go to the Zumba class tomorrow night, hopefully I can still keep up!!
As for my energy level, it is pretty good. I did drink a Dr. Pepper yesterday, not really because I was craving one, but because my head kinda hurt, and it was about the time I would normally have one, so I figured it was the withdrawal from the caffeine my body normally has at that time. Unfortunately, it didn't really help... I am chalking it up to the "detox" part of these shakes. It has so much good stuff for you in them, that it clears all the bad stuff out of your body. I think it was that, because even after dinner (a real meal of chicken quesadillas, YUM), it was still hurting a bit. I don't seem to be as tired or "worn out" as I have been. I still want to sleep in, but hopefully the longer I do these, the better that gets and I can maybe have a workout before work! But at night, I am usually just ready to fall down, don't really want to cook dinner, just want to veg on the couch. But last night was different. Wasn't tired or worn out, but when bedtime rolled around, was definitely ready for sleep. Which is good, sometimes I feel so tired, but when I get ready for bed, no sleep!
I just am so proud of my friend. She said that I was her inspiration, as several other people have, but they don't realize how much of an inspiration they are to me. Some of them that started after me have lost more, and that's because they kept at it no matter what! I haven't really done that. I have fallen off the wagon more than once! But it is them who keep me going, who keep me wanting to be fit, and help motivate me more!
Monday, April 16, 2012
Day 105- 279 pounds
So, I started my shakes yesterday that my friend was so gracious in letting me try out first. I weighed in at 281.8 yesterday morning, and down to 279 today. WOW. And the fact that they taste like candy, or decadent coffee, or fruit smoothies, or whatever you want them to taste like!! I had a vanilla caramel frappuccino and a Butterfinger yesterday. The first one was OK, not as much flavor as I personally thought it would have, but still tasted good (and as I told my husband, it was much better tasting than a "light" at Starbucks!!) The Butterfinger one really surprised me. It really tasted like a candy bar. I let my whole family taste that one, and my kids are like, "Mom, can we start drinking those too??"
Today was a Tropical Pineapple, and now a Peanut Butter Cup for lunch. The pineapple one, again, was ok, probably will put more fruit in it next time, but still was very good. The peanut butter cup is amazing! Taste's just like a Reese's.
I think I am going to do the 90 day challenge. I already have some people that want info on it, so they might try it as well. And the more people we get doing it, the more free stuff for all of us. I love saving money, and if it is going to help me lose weight in the process, then I am all for it!
THANKS JOANNA!!!
So, not sure how many workouts I will be able to put in this week. Trying to get back into the habit of working out and going to the gym, but we have a baseball game on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday, and practice on Wednesday and Saturday. Whoo!
I think I will go ahead and end this for today. Will be back tomorrow! If anyone else is interested in getting on board with this shake... let me know. The more people we can get healthy, the better!
Today was a Tropical Pineapple, and now a Peanut Butter Cup for lunch. The pineapple one, again, was ok, probably will put more fruit in it next time, but still was very good. The peanut butter cup is amazing! Taste's just like a Reese's.
I think I am going to do the 90 day challenge. I already have some people that want info on it, so they might try it as well. And the more people we get doing it, the more free stuff for all of us. I love saving money, and if it is going to help me lose weight in the process, then I am all for it!
THANKS JOANNA!!!
So, not sure how many workouts I will be able to put in this week. Trying to get back into the habit of working out and going to the gym, but we have a baseball game on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday, and practice on Wednesday and Saturday. Whoo!
I think I will go ahead and end this for today. Will be back tomorrow! If anyone else is interested in getting on board with this shake... let me know. The more people we can get healthy, the better!
Friday, April 13, 2012
Day 102-282 pounds
This is me, gaining and losing the same weight. Again, still haven't gotten back on track on the exercise, but that should be forthcoming. Also, have my "test drive" shakes on the way this afternoon, so will be starting them soon too.
I need to get serious about writing down my goals, getting my vision board up and running. This weekend, with all the rain might just be a great time to be working on that. Hopefully that will also help with the motivation!
The will power thing is another one I am struggling with. I have never had much of it, so it is a stretch for me. But I am hoping that the shakes do something for me, I have heard they are quite addicting, as well as great tasting, you can make them taste like candy.... so hopefully...
I am going to keep this short and sweet, as it has been a crazy busy day. Just wanted to keep up, and let you all know I am still trying... still working...
I need to get serious about writing down my goals, getting my vision board up and running. This weekend, with all the rain might just be a great time to be working on that. Hopefully that will also help with the motivation!
The will power thing is another one I am struggling with. I have never had much of it, so it is a stretch for me. But I am hoping that the shakes do something for me, I have heard they are quite addicting, as well as great tasting, you can make them taste like candy.... so hopefully...
I am going to keep this short and sweet, as it has been a crazy busy day. Just wanted to keep up, and let you all know I am still trying... still working...
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Day 100- 280 pounds
Down from yesterday again. I am thinking of modifying my plan a bit. Maybe not weighing every day. I don't know how that will work though, it seems to make me more aware of what I have or haven't done when I weigh every day... but sometimes it gets me down when the weight hasn't come off like I think it should. Just pondering that...
I have had a great "show of faith" given to me by an old schoolmate, who is now a Facebook friend and loyal blog follower. She is involved with the ViSalus Company and has offered me a "test drive" of the shakes to see if I can and want to take them. Her and I are both hoping that this might be the motivation I need to get back on track. I am supposed to meet with a friend of hers on Friday afternoon to get my "test drive." I am pretty excited.
I know this is part of my problem. I have not given up, just lost the momentum. But I see how little I have lost (at least I think so) and how much I could have lost in all this time, and all the weight I have to lose to reach my goal. It's so easy to focus on the negative... why is that?!?
We have ball practice tonight. My husband's back is feeling much better. I am planning on helping with practice as much as possible, he is still healing! I am also hoping to be able to walk for a bit while my older son is practicing, so I can get some movement in! My knee was kinda feeling funny again last night. I have not been diligent on taking my glucosamine medicine, so I started taking those again, and hopefully walking will get it better.
I do want to start that class next week. That's on Tuesdays. I would love to get back into the Zumba class, but with my husband hurt, that might be a bit of a stretch, as baseball and Zumba are on the same night. But actual games start soon, and most of those are not on a Wednesday. So, there's hope!
I have had a great "show of faith" given to me by an old schoolmate, who is now a Facebook friend and loyal blog follower. She is involved with the ViSalus Company and has offered me a "test drive" of the shakes to see if I can and want to take them. Her and I are both hoping that this might be the motivation I need to get back on track. I am supposed to meet with a friend of hers on Friday afternoon to get my "test drive." I am pretty excited.
We have ball practice tonight. My husband's back is feeling much better. I am planning on helping with practice as much as possible, he is still healing! I am also hoping to be able to walk for a bit while my older son is practicing, so I can get some movement in! My knee was kinda feeling funny again last night. I have not been diligent on taking my glucosamine medicine, so I started taking those again, and hopefully walking will get it better.
I do want to start that class next week. That's on Tuesdays. I would love to get back into the Zumba class, but with my husband hurt, that might be a bit of a stretch, as baseball and Zumba are on the same night. But actual games start soon, and most of those are not on a Wednesday. So, there's hope!
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