I am the creator of my own destiny. I am the one that makes the decisions on how I live my life. And I want to live my life to the fullest. With that being said, decisions on my part need to be made. Motivation and determination need to be the new mindset. I know how hard it is growing up overweight. I don't want my kids to have to endure that pain and rejection that many of us have went through. On a positive note, being overweight through school has "toughened" me up a bit. Things don't get to me like they used to. When something happens that I don't like, I deal with it and move on. I don't dwell on things too long. I have learned that being upset about what people say about you, or dwelling on an argument you have had, just takes time away from you being happy or being productive. I have been ridiculed my entire life, mostly over my weight. But let me tell you one thing... I promise I know what it is like. I have went through it all. In school, not only was I overweight, but I wore glasses, and had braces. So trust me... I have been where you have been, I have went through what you have went through.
When you look in the mirror, see what you want to see. See what's in the inside, and it will project to the outside. As long as you are happy with who you are, inside and out, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
I am overdue on my readiness for change. I have been ready for change for years. I just haven't really worked for the change. I will get my motivation back, whether it likes it or not! I just have to be tough with it. I have to be tough with myself. I will have to deprive myself of the things that I think I want. That cookie, that cake, those chips are not worth it. Today, the change comes back!!