Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Day 20 of 90

Tomorrow will be 3 weeks into my challenge.  I am not looking forward to weighing myself tomorrow.  I will measure tomorrow as well.  I am hoping for some change in inches, as the scale is betraying me!  LOL  I am a little scared that the inches will not have changed either, but that is completely my fault too, so no one to blame but me!  I think my mindset has taken a vacation.  At the beginning of the year, I was going to the gym everyday.  I enjoyed going to the gym everyday.  It's not that I have changed my mindset, I still want to see this through.  I just think that it's taken some time off.  And I don't really have time for that.  I have a certain goal, and unfortunately, I am not sure I will reach my initial goal by the end of the year.  I just have to get my mind, body, and heart back on track and I can reach my goal.  Maybe not by the end of the year, but I will reach it nonetheless.  

I am the creator of my own destiny.  I am the one that makes the decisions on how I live my life.  And I want to live my life to the fullest.  With that being said, decisions on my part need to be made.  Motivation and determination need to be the new mindset.  I know how hard it is growing up overweight.  I don't want my kids to have to endure that pain and rejection that many of us have went through.  On a positive note, being overweight through school has "toughened" me up a bit.  Things don't get to me like they used to.  When something happens that I don't like, I deal with it and move on.  I don't dwell on things too long.  I have learned that being upset about what people say about you, or dwelling on an argument you have had, just takes time away from you being happy or being productive.  I have been ridiculed my entire life, mostly over my weight.  But let me tell you one thing... I promise I know what it is like.  I have went through it all.  In school, not only was I overweight, but I wore glasses, and had braces.  So trust me... I have been where you have been, I have went through what you have went through.  

When you look in the mirror, see what you want to see.  See what's in the inside, and it will project to the outside.  As long as you are happy with who you are, inside and out, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.  

I am overdue on my readiness for change.  I have been ready for change for years.  I just haven't really worked for the change.  I will get my motivation back, whether it likes it or not!  I just have to be tough with it.  I have to be tough with myself.  I will have to deprive myself of the things that I think I want.  That cookie, that cake, those chips are not worth it.  Today, the change comes back!!

1 comment:

  1. That just brought tears to my eyes...we can and will do this for ourselves, our kids, and our friends and loved ones that depend on us for support!!! I just love you and your posts!